So, it's over. And no, I really don't want to talk about it anymore. Just know that I was upset, I cried a lot, and we haven't talked since. True I may have written a story about it (which I may post at some point in the near future), but I do want you to know that my friends were amazing during the whole thing. I didn't go one day without seeing somebody and they let me rant or cry or just laugh, whatever I needed to do to get through it. It's times like these that make you realize how much I need them in my life. But, I mean, it's getting easier to pretend I'm okay. I still can't listen to particular songs, and watching some movies may be hard, but I haven't wallowed by eating Ben and Jerry's and watching sad movies. I figure I'm out of bed, I'm eating, I'm laughing and smiling... I may not be ready to exactly move on, but, I'm better than I could be.

In other parts of my life, school has started up again full force. I've already had homework and it's only the third day. I only have one more class today, and then I'm heading back home to sleep and maybe have a marathon. I would say I'd go on the computer, but alas, my interet on my computer has failed to work (again) except now it's the regular internet, and not the wireless. So, I'm basically sitting my three hour break away on the school's computers to get my fill. It's not really working out, but luckily I'm going home this weekend and I'm hoping that I can get it nice and fixed up before I come back. Otherwise, I may very well die from boredom.

But, I do love my classes and it's amazing to be back with all of my friends. I was seriously on campus for twelve hours on Monday and was not alone once. Amazing right? True, I was flippin' exhausted afterwards, especially after having gone grocery shopping too, but still. Overall, a good start to the school year.  

Wishing everyone...


a Merry Christmas! 


Cheers!  

OMG, I just realized I didn't post anything about the Office! I do however know that no one really cares what I think about it, but I don't care.

Okay, whoever came up with the idea of Michael trying to jump onto a moonbounce thingy, was genius. Depressed Michael makes him less annoying and makes me feel horrible for him because he really and truly just wants to be liked, even if he does it in the wrong ways. In these situations it just makes him normal.

And props to making Karen feeling out of place because she didn't know enough about the others to do well at the betting. And thanks for no Karen/Jim moments because if I get too many more, I'm gonna vomit, for sure. So, yay for the Jim/Pam and the Kevin making the comments about the jelly beans. It was awkward and perfect and Jim really didn't mind. So, that's great.

And Stanley! OMG! The watermelons!

I really wanted someone to jump on the moonbounce. Like, seriously, that would have been hilarious.

P.S. I heart Dwight. Because he's an ignorant slut (thank you SNL Weekend Udate reference).

Spring 2007 Schedule:

American Literature I MWF 1-1.50pm
Creative Writing - Fiction T 5-7.30 pm
Public Speaking W 6-8.30pm
Math as a Liberal Art TTh 11-12.15 pm
Communicating in French TTh 2-3.15 pm
British Literature II Th 5-7.30 pm


Yeah, it's still 18 credits and I'm still crazy. But, I need a math and I need public speaking. The rest are for my major and potential major/minor. So, yeah. However, I was still unable to get a freakin' lab. And I'm still really mad about it. It'll be like the last thing I'll ever do in this god forsaken place because it's always full. It seems no matter how far up in the rankings I am, I still can't take what I need. God.

The concert on Saturday was ridiculous. It was rainy and cool, and the venue was ice so my feet were numb. However, Death Cab rocked out per usual and makes me love them more and more. And it was fun to hang out with Shan, because I don't as much as I used to. Don't even get me started on the parking. Just, wow. WOW.

And now I'm sick (headache/sinuses). So, it's fabulous. And I was in bed all day yesterday, and was actually asleep at 9.30pm. Yeah. So I'm fairly well rested, which is nice.

Hmm... hw. Blech.

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Had a wonderful time down south! Got burned on the backside of my body because I was stupid and it was an overcast so I didn't put lotion on. It's still hard to put a bra on. idk!

I swam in the ocean and I was on a cruise and I went bar hopping and I got hit on by men and I got free drinks and I danced to reggae and I went shopping and I ate and I took a taxi and I threw up on the plane and I loved it when we were on land and I was in Detroit for about two hours so technically I visited Detroit and I took a train and I got queasy on the boat and I laid out and I didn't see sharks/dolphins/jellyfish/gators and I was sad and I cried one night and I laughed a lot and I bought some cute stuff and now I'm home.

Will post pictures later today. Prolly tonight. Must shower now, tho.

Off to Florida tomorrow until Saturday afternoon. 

Have a great week, everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

 

(let's hope this year is better than the last.)

Let's Get In On - Marvin Gaye
Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer
Criminal - Fiona Apple
Pour Some Sugar on Me - Def Leppard
Dirrty - Christina Aguilera
I Wanna Sex Up - Color Me Badd
La Tortura - Shakira
Bump N Grind - R Kelly
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Closer - Nine Inch Nails
Ride My Pony - Genuine
Black Balloon - Goo Goo Dolls
Naked - Marcus Houston
Stricken - Disturbed
Colorblind - Counting Crows
Crash Into Me - Dave Mathews Band
Come Back to Bed - John Mayer


There it is, the complete Sex CD that took 3 weeks to complete! So, enjoy ladies and gents... and let the music take you away!





Things are good here... can't wait to go home for the weekend, and to bring Ashley with me. It should be fun to bring a big town girl to a small one. But, at least it's bigger than what is here. *shrugs*

Finished my first true paper for my Writing class. I'm kind of excited about my prof. reading it, although she has already read a piece by me that we had to write the first day. So, yeah. It's about my childhood, which was fairly boring, of what I can remember at least.


Long day today. Don't have another class until 3, and then the long haul, intro to music from 5-7.30. I have to rush back to the Fluh for dinner, and then back to the dorm because it's 'Wildfire''s finale tonight!


And, did anyone watch the Cleveland Bball game last night? Ten fucking runs in two innings? It was beautiful! I wanted to cry, I was so happy. And, I actually got to watch it. In PA! I hope they get to go to the World Series so that I can continue to watch, well, just Grady Sizemore at least. *grins*


Also, Kyle might be coming up sometime to visit. I don't know what to expect of that, and I was hoping Ashley would be here the weekend he might come, but she's going home. Wah! What to do, what to do!

Ashley and my bed's.

Amanda's side of the room. Ick.

The Bitch Wall.

Ashley and I.

 

My corner.

 

 

 

This post was brought to you because there is nothing to do on campus and no one is here. Thank you, and have a good night.

I'm glad that I'm home, really, I am. But, being here, and knowing what happened all summer... it was all here, in this town. So, when I'm here, my mind and everything is set on him, seeing him, being with him. At school, I was never there with him, so being there doesn't register with him at all. I can enjoy myself more, I have things to do to keep me occupied. But, being home... it just makes everything come back. I want to enjoy being home, but right now, I would rather be at school.

In a way, I want to call him, hang out, but I can't anymore. It's stupid... all of it. I just need to get over myself, really. Like, I'm almost positive I'm over him, I'm not saying I'm ready to start dating either, but... I'm okay with not being with him.

In other words, I'm just repeating myself, so I'll just shut up with the topic. It's making me sick.

In other news, I got my hair cut. Pretty much just like Kristen from 'Laguna Beach'. I really liked the style and cut of it, so I went today and got it done, no thinking or waiting. I like it so far, but who knows how I'll feel in the morning. Ugh.

Family picnic tonight, but Laura and Megan are coming with me. So, it'll be fun. :)

Talked to Kyle last night for like, 15 minutes. He was sorry about not visiting (he was running late with everything), but he did sound sincere, so I guess we're back to being okay. He said he'd call, and that for sure he'd be home for Thanksgiving so we can see HP together. I'm excited. That, and I know we'll talk online. If that's all I can get, I have to accept it I guess.

Dorm stuff is sweet. Like, my roommates are really cool, me and Ashley really click well (our love for Paris Hilton for example). Amanda's pretty quiet, but we'll open her up soon enough. The room is kinda bare right now, but once we get posters and shit, it'll look pimp. We actually already got invited to the girl's room across the hall for a movie night, so that'll be fun.

Miss everyone. *gives kisses*