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don't let me get me

2008-08-27T16:51:54Z

So, it's over. And no, I really don't want to talk about it anymore. Just know that I was upset, I cried a lot, and we haven't talked since. True I may have written a story about it (which I may post at some point in the near future), but I do want you to know that my friends were amazing during the whole thing. I didn't go one day without seeing somebody and they let me rant or cry or just laugh, whatever I needed to do to get through it. It's times like these that make you realize how much I need them in my life. But, I mean, it's getting easier to pretend I'm okay. I still can't listen to particular songs, and watching some movies may be hard, but I haven't wallowed by eating Ben and Jerry's and watching sad movies. I figure I'm out of bed, I'm eating, I'm laughing and smiling... I may not be ready to exactly move on, but, I'm better than I could be.

In other parts of my life, school has started up again full force. I've already had homework and it's only the third day. I only have one more class today, and then I'm heading back home to sleep and maybe have a marathon. I would say I'd go on the computer, but alas, my interet on my computer has failed to work (again) except now it's the regular internet, and not the wireless. So, I'm basically sitting my three hour break away on the school's computers to get my fill. It's not really working out, but luckily I'm going home this weekend and I'm hoping that I can get it nice and fixed up before I come back. Otherwise, I may very well die from boredom.

But, I do love my classes and it's amazing to be back with all of my friends. I was seriously on campus for twelve hours on Monday and was not alone once. Amazing right? True, I was flippin' exhausted afterwards, especially after having gone grocery shopping too, but still. Overall, a good start to the school year.

may all your christmases be white

2007-12-25T23:09:06Z

Wishing everyone...

a Merry Christmas!

Cheers!

and here's to you

2007-04-16T14:58:25Z

OMG, I just realized I didn't post anything about the Office! I do however know that no one really cares what I think about it, but I don't care.

Okay, whoever came up with the idea of Michael trying to jump onto a moonbounce thingy, was genius. Depressed Michael makes him less annoying and makes me feel horrible for him because he really and truly just wants to be liked, even if he does it in the wrong ways. In these situations it just makes him normal.

And props to making Karen feeling out of place because she didn't know enough about the others to do well at the betting. And thanks for no Karen/Jim moments because if I get too many more, I'm gonna vomit, for sure. So, yay for the Jim/Pam and the Kevin making the comments about the jelly beans. It was awkward and perfect and Jim really didn't mind. So, that's great.

And Stanley! OMG! The watermelons!

I really wanted someone to jump on the moonbounce. Like, seriously, that would have been hilarious.

P.S. I heart Dwight. Because he's an ignorant slut (thank you SNL Weekend Udate reference).

soquitelovely @ 2007-03-09T13:52:00

2007-03-09T18:53:14Z

SPRING BREAK!!!

pack your bags and it's time to move on

2006-11-13T22:21:44Z

Spring 2007 Schedule:

American Literature I MWF 1-1.50pm
Creative Writing - Fiction T 5-7.30 pm
Public Speaking W 6-8.30pm
Math as a Liberal Art TTh 11-12.15 pm
Communicating in French TTh 2-3.15 pm
British Literature II Th 5-7.30 pm

Yeah, it's still 18 credits and I'm still crazy. But, I need a math and I need public speaking. The rest are for my major and potential major/minor. So, yeah. However, I was still unable to get a freakin' lab. And I'm still really mad about it. It'll be like the last thing I'll ever do in this god forsaken place because it's always full. It seems no matter how far up in the rankings I am, I still can't take what I need. God.

The concert on Saturday was ridiculous. It was rainy and cool, and the venue was ice so my feet were numb. However, Death Cab rocked out per usual and makes me love them more and more. And it was fun to hang out with Shan, because I don't as much as I used to. Don't even get me started on the parking. Just, wow. WOW.

And now I'm sick (headache/sinuses). So, it's fabulous. And I was in bed all day yesterday, and was actually asleep at 9.30pm. Yeah. So I'm fairly well rested, which is nice.

Hmm... hw. Blech.

soquitelovely @ 2006-06-08T00:05:00

2006-06-08T04:05:56Z

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4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your's

a perfect day

2006-05-28T15:17:46Z

Had a wonderful time down south! Got burned on the backside of my body because I was stupid and it was an overcast so I didn't put lotion on. It's still hard to put a bra on. idk!

I swam in the ocean and I was on a cruise and I went bar hopping and I got hit on by men and I got free drinks and I danced to reggae and I went shopping and I ate and I took a taxi and I threw up on the plane and I loved it when we were on land and I was in Detroit for about two hours so technically I visited Detroit and I took a train and I got queasy on the boat and I laid out and I didn't see sharks/dolphins/jellyfish/gators and I was sad and I cried one night and I laughed a lot and I bought some cute stuff and now I'm home.

Will post pictures later today. Prolly tonight. Must shower now, tho.

have the time of your life

2006-05-21T22:03:46Z

Off to Florida tomorrow until Saturday afternoon.

Have a great week, everyone!

hug

2006-04-16T02:09:42Z

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

they are out of shamrock shakes here.. boo hoo!

2006-03-17T20:06:51Z

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!

(so go drink some green beer.)

the 14th

2006-02-14T17:03:39Z

Happy Valentine's Day everybody!!!

rabbit rabbit

2006-01-01T17:49:22Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

(let's hope this year is better than the last.)

soquitelovely @ 2005-12-24T22:04:00

2005-12-25T03:06:08Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

and green eyes... how they sparkle

2005-12-20T17:43:43Z

A - Age of your first kiss: 14
B - Band you are listening to right now: My Chemical Romance/The Used
C - Crush: Mikey Way
D - Dad's name: Larry
E - Easiest person to talk to: Beth, Jen, my mom, and Lindsay
F - Funniest person you know: Johnny Knoxville (lol)
G - Gummy worms or Gummy bears?: worms
H - Hometown: Conneaut
I - Instruments: clarinet, mellophone, french horn
J - Junior High: Rowe
K - Kids: sure, one day though
L - Longest car ride: to Florida!
M - Mom's name: Debi
N - Nicknames: Manda, Chief, Mikey Way
O - One wish: staying warm
P - Phobia: being alone
Q - Quote: 'He messed with my groove!'
R - Reasons to smile: because it's better than frowning and crying.
S- Shampoo you use: Herbal Essence at school, Suava and Pert Plus at home
T - Time you woke up today: 11.45am
U - Unknown fact about you: i miss writing
V - Veggie you hate: squash
W - Worst luck with: science
X - X-rays you've had: teeth
Y - Years since you've been to church: this summer I went to a wedding
Z - Zodiac sign: Libra

WRATH
1. Who did you last get angry with? Ky
2. What is your weapon of choice? sarcasm
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? depends
4. How about of the same sex? nope
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? dunno
6. What is your pet peeve? PA drivers
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i let it go

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you have not done in a long time? it would be taking my contacts out at night, but now I actually do.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 1ish
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? prolly Laura
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? forget to
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? I don't think so
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? earlier this semester
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? none, I just shut it off and fell back asleep!

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? smoothies from school
2. Meat eater? chicken!
3. Do you eat the skin of off chicken? usually not
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? nah
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yes
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? i dunno... prolly salty
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "lunch"? no!

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? 1
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? 1
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? haha
4. Have you "done it"? not yet
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? freckles, eyes, arms, hands...
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? no
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? nope

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own? i have a debit card
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Borders/Hot Topic
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? college, giving stuff to my parents and grandparents, buying a whole new wardrobe, and get myself a really great apartment! ooh, and fixing my damn cd player in my car for pete's sake!
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? no lie, i would
6. Have you ever stolen anything? nope
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? don't have em
PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? going away for school and paying for it myself
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? graduating and going to SRU
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? success
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? no, second place is good... well, sometimes. it depends! gah!
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? uh, no.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? in middle school.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? showered!

ENVY

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Borders and Mikey Way
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? prolly Lindsay
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? I like me, very much!
4. Have you ever been cheated on? who knows
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? sure
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? confidence
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? prolly gluttony

when the storm blows you away

2005-09-15T17:24:49Z

Let's Get In On - Marvin Gaye
Your Body is a Wonderland - John Mayer
Criminal - Fiona Apple
Pour Some Sugar on Me - Def Leppard
Dirrty - Christina Aguilera
I Wanna Sex Up - Color Me Badd
La Tortura - Shakira
Bump N Grind - R Kelly
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
Closer - Nine Inch Nails
Ride My Pony - Genuine
Black Balloon - Goo Goo Dolls
Naked - Marcus Houston
Stricken - Disturbed
Colorblind - Counting Crows
Crash Into Me - Dave Mathews Band
Come Back to Bed - John Mayer

There it is, the complete Sex CD that took 3 weeks to complete! So, enjoy ladies and gents... and let the music take you away!

Things are good here... can't wait to go home for the weekend, and to bring Ashley with me. It should be fun to bring a big town girl to a small one. But, at least it's bigger than what is here. *shrugs*

there's something in the way...

2005-09-12T16:32:40Z

Finished my first true paper for my Writing class. I'm kind of excited about my prof. reading it, although she has already read a piece by me that we had to write the first day. So, yeah. It's about my childhood, which was fairly boring, of what I can remember at least.

Long day today. Don't have another class until 3, and then the long haul, intro to music from 5-7.30. I have to rush back to the Fluh for dinner, and then back to the dorm because it's 'Wildfire''s finale tonight!

And, did anyone watch the Cleveland Bball game last night? Ten fucking runs in two innings? It was beautiful! I wanted to cry, I was so happy. And, I actually got to watch it. In PA! I hope they get to go to the World Series so that I can continue to watch, well, just Grady Sizemore at least. *grins*

Also, Kyle might be coming up sometime to visit. I don't know what to expect of that, and I was hoping Ashley would be here the weekend he might come, but she's going home. Wah! What to do, what to do!

central park in fall

2005-09-09T23:49:20Z

Ashley and my bed's.

Amanda's side of the room. Ick.

The Bitch Wall.

Ashley and I.

My corner.

This post was brought to you because there is nothing to do on campus and no one is here. Thank you, and have a good night.

Wake Me Up, when september ends

2005-09-04T16:56:32Z

I'm glad that I'm home, really, I am. But, being here, and knowing what happened all summer... it was all here, in this town. So, when I'm here, my mind and everything is set on him, seeing him, being with him. At school, I was never there with him, so being there doesn't register with him at all. I can enjoy myself more, I have things to do to keep me occupied. But, being home... it just makes everything come back. I want to enjoy being home, but right now, I would rather be at school.

In a way, I want to call him, hang out, but I can't anymore. It's stupid... all of it. I just need to get over myself, really. Like, I'm almost positive I'm over him, I'm not saying I'm ready to start dating either, but... I'm okay with not being with him.

In other words, I'm just repeating myself, so I'll just shut up with the topic. It's making me sick.

In other news, I got my hair cut. Pretty much just like Kristen from 'Laguna Beach'. I really liked the style and cut of it, so I went today and got it done, no thinking or waiting. I like it so far, but who knows how I'll feel in the morning. Ugh.

Family picnic tonight, but Laura and Megan are coming with me. So, it'll be fun. :)

just a note saying I'm okay

2005-08-27T20:20:40Z

Talked to Kyle last night for like, 15 minutes. He was sorry about not visiting (he was running late with everything), but he did sound sincere, so I guess we're back to being okay. He said he'd call, and that for sure he'd be home for Thanksgiving so we can see HP together. I'm excited. That, and I know we'll talk online. If that's all I can get, I have to accept it I guess.

Dorm stuff is sweet. Like, my roommates are really cool, me and Ashley really click well (our love for Paris Hilton for example). Amanda's pretty quiet, but we'll open her up soon enough. The room is kinda bare right now, but once we get posters and shit, it'll look pimp. We actually already got invited to the girl's room across the hall for a movie night, so that'll be fun.

Miss everyone. *gives kisses*

soquitelovely @ 2005-07-31T10:42:00

2005-07-31T14:42:50Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Silly Rabbit, Trix are for kids.

2005-07-28T23:17:58Z

Home, at last.

Ah, it's nice to be home. Although I'm already missing the sleeping body next to mine, the warmth and comfort that comes from his direction with every breath.

Huh.

Our hotel was ridiculous, I'm not going to lie. I only took a few pictures, ones of the hotel room while the others were away for a bit. I regret not taking any pictures of the ocean, or of my friends that were there. Drat.

It was hot, and humid, and gross to be in clothes the whole time. We saw drunk people, ugly people, pretty people, weird people that didn't understand our language. All in all, however, it was nice vacation. I wish we had stayed a bit longer. *is sad*

Will probably post pictures or something sometime this weekend. I'm exhausted after having slept barely four hours last night, then like, 8 of 10 hours driving sleeping today.

And he dropped me off like, two hours ago, and I already want to see him again.

you walked into my life, to start my tears.

2005-07-23T23:06:58Z

All right, kiddos.

I'm finally getting the hell out of here. Had a row with my mom, over what, I'm still not sure. I'd rather not leave like this, but hey, I'm going on vacation and I'm going to have one hell of a time.

And I still haven't seen him yet. And I got so excited to hear his voice on his voicemail.

Pathetic.

Have a good week, everybody!

soquitelovely @ 2005-07-23T00:08:00

2005-07-23T04:10:21Z

I hate that I can't sleep. It's like Christmas, and I'm too excited to fall asleep because the morning will be so much fun. Alas, it won't be until tomorrow night that my excitement will be fulfilled.

I'm so impatient.

And I have to work.

It's going to be the longest day of my life, I already know.

Yippy.

soquitelovely @ 2005-07-18T15:39:00

2005-07-18T19:39:53Z

Ooh. Pretty pretty journal!